I tried to think of a time when I experienced this feeling. My mind lead me back to a time when I was much younger. My mother used to force me to go to a Korean Saturday School, this way I could learn the language and learn a little about my heritage. I am half Korean and when I showed up I stuck out like a sore thumb among all the “100%” Koreans. They had all been raised in households less Americanized than mine and many of them could already speak the language quite well. I felt very left out and very excluded, nobody talked to me and frankly I didn’t really want to talk to them. They scared me and I had my mind made up that I didn’t like them. I had this feeling that they were all my enemies. I felt like I didn’t fit in, and they didn’t like me, and all I wanted to do was leave. Now that I look back this seems very immature of me and I wish I would have tried to make friends. But, I can sympathize with my 10 year old self and understand how feeling that I was different could cause me to react in this way.
The case that Ishmael speaks of is very different than mine. It is a similar feeling but on a different more serious level. There are times in “A Long Way Gone” where we see this behavior. When the boys sneak back into Mattru Jong to find money for food, a situation like this occurs. “At one point, as soon as we had crossed the road, we heard footsteps. There was no immediate cover, so we had to swiftly run onto a verandah and hide behind stacks of cement bricks”(pg. 27, A Long Way Gone). The boys have no clue who might be approaching, but they scramble for cover assuming that whoever it is, is a threat and an enemy. There is no trust among people here. All strangers are enemies.
Leah, I completely agree that your situation and the one Ishmael faced were very similar. I liked how you included in your passage that they were the same just on different levels.
ReplyDeleteLeah-
ReplyDeleteI loved how you recalled a specific memory from your youth about Korean Saturday School. It was very interesting and pleasing to read. I agree with you when you say that what Ishmael speaks of is much more serious that you, or any of us, can relate to.
-Georgia
Thanks for your feedback guys!
ReplyDeleteLeah-
ReplyDeleteAwesome post! I loved the colorful detail in your reflection. That was very well related to the situation that Ishmael and his friends were in, although on a different level, as you pointed out. I really liked the last sentence of your post in particular, which tied together your entire reflection really well.
nice job!
Lauren
Leah,
ReplyDeleteYour post was so interesting to read! I loved how you added specific details from your past. Even though Ishmaels situation was much more traumatzing you did a fantastic job comparing them. I really liked how you added a specific example from the book. Great Job!
Julia.